Why I Fail
Why do I fail? Is it because I am a woman, now an old woman, and men have always ruled the world? No, or at least only tangentially, ha, that's almost a funny punny.
Using my 2nd New Year's Resolution for 2023 as an illustration, I have failed my own resolve 4 times in the first 70 days of 2023; meaning that I failed to eat between 10 A.M. and 6 P.M., which is to say I failed to fast intermittently for a self-prescribed sixteen hours out of the twenty-four hours in each day.
I recall my "reasons" for failing to eat between 10 AM — 6 P.M.:
Fail #1. I was disoriented, felt "off", and I did not have the organizational ability to prepare and eat my evening meal before 6 P.M.
Fail #2. I had an upsetting day and I calmed myself with anger snacking after 6 P.M.
Fail #3. I was very tired and by the time I was rested enough to eat it was past 6 P.M.
Fail #4. I simply forgot that I am fasting, and I had an evening snack as has been my habit for all of my adult life. I remembered that I should be fasting after I had eaten 4 of 6 ice cream bites, then I was so dismayed with my self that I gave up and ate the last 2 bites too.
These four fails give me some insight into my inner workings which should help me improve my life even at this late stage of it.
Why I Fail
by Annmarie Throckmorton, copyright 2023