My idols* have changed over the years. As a girl, when television was still black and white, I was disconcerted to realize that ultra-male, rootin' tootin' American Westerner John Wayne was my idol, but he was. When I was a young woman, out and about exploring the world, I took a long side trip just to see Monument Valley where John Wayne filmed some movies, it's desolation scared me, it was not a fit place for man nor woman. When I tried John Wayne's style of fighting for justice and honor, the ghastly consequences scared me too. His brawling buckaroo methods were not fit behavior for a woman, and as times have changed, neither is it now fit behavior for man.
I have admired many people in my life, and I have loved quite a few, but I do not recall having ever revered anyone as an idol. I have seen too many feet of clay on those high up on idol pedestals.
So if compelled to chose, I would have say that I must be my own idol, and I am still doing my best to be my best at it.
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* Idol is an image or representation of a god used as an object of worship.
a person or thing that is greatly admired, loved, or revered.
Caption: John Wayne saddling up at Monument Valley, AZ
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